I don’t know what has happened to me and blogging. I really used to enjoy it, and I still really do. I suppose this is what comes in growing up…getting a job…getting a life. The other day I had thought of a really good philosophical post to make, and now I can barely remember my argument. Something to do with blame and society. But I was at work and didn’t have time to write it down. I think that the time has come where I need to start making an extreme effort to record my thoughts again. And especially make an effort to write more. I just miss it. I suppose it was having an outlet, I suppose it was because I didn’t go out, or drink, I suppose it was because my social life lacked…a lot. And now I feel like I can’t have my cake and eat it too. I suppose that may be why I’ve been so asocial recently. I’m allowing myself to slip back like I did in high-school. To allow myself to be creative. I’m not sure. I suppose I’ll just ponder this another day… Love Always, /\/\®•₣®₤@]{
January 2011
5 posts
I remember tumblarity. I’ve been gone so long I never knew they got rid of it, until I started looking to see how much mine had dropped. I remember when mine got into the hundreds, and I was in the top blogs nation and worldwide. Good times, good times.
So this tumblr thing. I’ve tried to get into it and I’ve seriously failed. I don’t know what my deal is. I kinda wish facebook would like…die so I would start using tumblr and LiveJournal again. I feel kinda guilty that I’ve nearly abandoned both of my blogging sites that I used to cherish so much. I’m starting to feel like it was a phase of my life that’s passed. But in feeling that way about my blogs, I’m terrified that I might feel the same way about writing. I love to write, and I’ve seriously been neglecting that since I’ve dropped out of college and working full time. My brain has more outings now that I’ve grown up and I’ve gotten more friends. I don’t want my writings to stop, and I don’t think they will, but I also enjoyed sharing them with people and being able to stir up emotions within them with just some words, and in neglecting my blogs like I have been, I feel like I can’t share them any more. I just wish that I could get back into it like I was, but I also feel like not only was it a phase, but it’s for kids in high school, and I would be that one old guy on there, and I wouldn’t have the audience of readers that I would like. **sigh** I don’t know. In growing up I just feel like I’ve lost a lot of who I used to be. I’m okay with and respect the person that I’ve become, but I also wish I could reclaim(*something just dawned on me*) some of those past feelings and views that I once had. eh….
Love Always,
Rev. Freak
